jason mraz!

so jason mraz is coming to town.

OH

MYYYYYYYYY

here's the thing, i have never, until now, liked a human being as i use to like jason mraz. i read all his blogs, memorize all his lyrics and i always felt so connected to him and i was sure he was my soulmate, we just haven't met yet.

gw smp tau klo dia pernah nikah sebentar sm cewe namanya sheridan trus dia openly bisexual. he's never had sex with a guy, tp he'd like to. haha

tp itu dulu. hahahaha. i've came to my senses dan yaudah si skrg ngefans sewajarnya aja. hahaha. tp ga ada lagu jason mraz yg gw ga suka.

pertama bella yg ngasi tau klo java jazz jason mraz bakal dtg, tp bella jg ga yakin. trus pmnya ryan di msn ngasi tau klo jason mraz bakal maen tgl 6 maret.

trus gw seneng d pas bella blg klo dgr jason mraz inget gw. haha. dulu gw manggil bella bella luna. lagunya jason mraz bella luna. hahaha. klo gw nulis terus ttg jason mraz disini, ga bakal ada abisnya.

soooooooooooooo, what i'm going to do is. ngetem di sultan. ngetem abis2an di lobby bawa semua buku pelajaran klo perlu biar gw ga bosen.

gw sempet gt mikir, aaah coba taun dpn javajazznya jason mraz. ah tp ngarep ah. haha. ternyata. ooooh myyyy jason mrazzz. parah2. gw pengen teriak bgt rasanya. hahaha

another day

tadi gw k ps/senayan city sm ajeng, bella, atid, icha, nindi. seneeng, udah lama ga ketemu sm yg di bandung.  ooooh btw, gw td k ps naek bus lho dr rumah gw! naek 213 dr deket rumah gw, turun dpn atma trus naek 44 smp ps. haha.

inti dari post gw kali ini bukan mau nyeritain perjalanan gw naek bus, tp gw pgn cerita ttg abis dr sency.

so i got home, lgsg ol trus chatting sm monster. trus yaaaa gt deh. trus iman nelf. trus yaaaa gt deh.

aaaaaaaaahhhh gw pgn ceritaaaaaa tp gw ga mungkin nulis disiniiiiiiiiiiii. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

intinya, something occurred after doing those 2 things. something that got me thinking about a few things. a lot of things actually. tp gw ga mungkin nulis disiniiiii. aaaaaaaaaaahhh gateeeelllll. pengen nulis tp ga bisa.

hmmm time to get my old journal out of the shelf. haha

maaf ya postnya ga jelas dan, maybe, bikin penasaran. hahaha

-eh iya, sumpah gw kecanduan maen guess the sketch ni gara2 nurul sm yuni. haha. maen deh di facebook.

-trus td ya, untuk pertama kalinya, internet gw di hp bisa. hahaha. menurut gw, itu dikarenakan oleh keberadaan bella disitu. bella bawa hokkie. haha

-gw hr sabtu ke subtitles trus minjem dr. strangelove, eyes wide shut sm shawshank redemption. gw pinjem eyes wide shut sm dr. strangelove kan ceritanya mau ngubrick gt kan. tp sayang sekali, gw ga ngerti dr. strangelove anjrit. item putih lg. trus eyes wide shut biasa aja. cuma bgs pas di rumah topeng2 doang. trus ntn shawshank redemption ga bisa gara2 laptop gw sok2 sensitif imut gt jd baret dikit ga kebaca. trus ntn di dvd player g bisa soalnya region codenya beda dan udah g bisa di ganti. huuaaaaaaaah.

awareness test

ok this is fucking hilarious. hahahaha

pergolakan pemikiran islam

So today, my dad gave me a book which is probably going to be the best book I will ever lay my hands on. The title is Pergolakan Pemikiran Islam by Ahmad Wahid. Anybody ever heard of it. Sumpah2, gw cuma bisa bilang. Bacaaaaaaaaaa sumpah bacaaaaaaaa ini bagus bgtttt I can’t even describe it. So what I’m going to do is write some passages from my favorite part, kebebasan berpikir. Here it goes:

 

 

 saya sungguh tidak dapat mengerti mengapa orang begitu phobi dengan pemikiran bebas. Malahan orang yang takut untuk berpikir bebas itu ditimpa oleh ketakutan dan keraguan akan kepura-puraannya yang sudah tidak terlihat. Dia ragu untuk berkata bahwa ada suatu pikiran yang dia benamkan di bawah sadarnya. Pikiran yang dibenamkan ini dia larang untuk muncul dalam kesadarannya.

 

Dengan berpikir bebas bisa salah hasilnya. Dengan tidak berpikir bebas juga bisa salah hasilnya. Lalu mana yang lebih potensial untuk tidak salah? Dan mana yang lebih potensial untuk menemukan kebenaran-kebenaran baru? Saya kira orang yang tidak mau berpikir bebas itu telah menyia-nyiakan hadian Allah yang begitu berharga yaitu otak.

 

Tuhan aku ingin berbicara dengan engkau dalam suasana bebas. Aku percaya bahwa engkau tidak hanya benci pada ucapan-ucapan yang munafik, tapi juga benci pada pikiran-pikiran yang munafik, yaitu pikiran-pikiran yang tidak berani memikirkan yang timbul dalam pikirannya, atau pikiran yang pura-pura tidak tahu pada pikiran sendiri

 

Saya tidak mau jadi orang munafik, sok suci dan semacam itu. Percobaan menyembunyikan pikiran bawah sadar yang mungkin ada? Dan saya tidak mau berpura-pura. Apalagi terhadap sesama manusia seperti Ahmad dan lain-lainnya.

 

 

Ya itu sedikit dari bagian kebebasan berpikir. Haha. Bagian abis kebebasan berpikir: Emoh jadi orang munafik.

ok so do you now get what i like about the passage that i just wrote? or no no, do you get what this guy is actually talking about? the book is about the muslim way of thinking. so this guy, he kinds of mempertanyakan cara berpikir muslim. apa bener kita harus nerima semua aturan dan hukum islam itu secara mentah2? dan kalau misalnya kita mau mempertanyakan sesuatu, apa itu dosa? apa semua pikiran untuk mempertanyakan aturan2 tersebut dianggap dosa? apa benar semua hal yang di luar quran dan hadits itu salah? apa tuhan akan menghukum kita karena kita berpikir bebas padahal tuhan sendiri yang memberi kita akal tsb?

and my favorite part, kenapa orang takut bgt berpikir bebas? like mentioned earlier, it's because they're afraid. people who don't think freely has things supressed in their mind and pretends that those thoughts never occur to their head. free thinkers brought up those thoughts and those close minded people are of course disturbed cause they're kind of forced to face their lies. i mean, COME ON, masa si lo ga pernah mempertanyakan apa-apa tentang agama lo? lo bener2 mau nelen mentah2 tu the fact that moses parted the red sea and how a certain somebody we know could resurrect or whatever. i'm sorry if this is kind of harsh but if you claim you've never questioned those things, then you're the one being harsh to yourself.

yeah this book talks about stuff like that. THAT is why i LOVE it.

 

tulis tulis

so i actually don't have a particular topic for today but i feel like writing. actually, one topic just shoot out right now. my parents aren't home right now and adip i'm chatting with adip on msn and he's asking to cabut. hahahaa. yeah ok, it would be just a piece of cake and no one would know and it's something i really want to do since i have nothing to do anyway and i kind of want to spice up my holiday but i can't do that. haha. not when my parents are in a hospital not far from my house caused by a lasik operation gone wrong. i've always wanted to lasik my eyes, since my eyesight completely fucked up. -6.00. haha. but seeing the risks that could happen, i really want to keep my braille knowledge for teaching and teaching ONLY. haha.

i've also been thinking of tes snmptn ulang just for the sake of iseng. haha. i mean, come on, imagine this, i do the test again without telling my parents and i pick something really impossible like ekonomi and komunikasi or if i really want to go all the way, sekalian ikut ipc dan tambahin arsitek itb. hahaha. then MISALNYA gt keterima(which is almost impossible), kan lucu klo gw blg k nykp. eh ma ma, liat deh, aku keterima di FE lho. hahahahaahahhahaah. hey, it's ok tu ngayal kan? and people who are actually seriously applying for snmptn next year, don't worry, i won't do it. i know how annoying that is. haha.

i've also been thinking, gila i'm so goal oriented bgt d. sumpah2 lama2 cape sendiri. i mean i try like SHIT to be a somebody. i force myself into the debate society just cause i could have those public speaking skills, i keep thinking, snmptn lagi aah, and cari tempat buat magang ah, buat menuh2in cv, and all those stuff. i mean, i should be focusing on right now, on my grades alone. like that isn't already tricky enough.

merry christmas!

sorry it's kind of late, but check this out

should she or should she not?

love it! i watched it over and over.

what i think: i think gregoire shouldn't have put up the sign next to the jesus' birth thingy. the sign says things that are completely contrast to that jesus' birth thingy. atheism should still be given the right to express themselves, just like any religion. but we're humans aren't we? we should know better that that sign is there to mock the existence of christianity itself. religious things shouldn't be allowed to be put up against each other. but it;s hard actually, then that means chanukah isn't allowed, same goes for fsm decorations on christmas and many other things for that matter. hmmmm. sounds like a great debate topic. lol