korean friends

this post is really unimportant so i suggest you skip in haha.

amidst this korean madness, i can't help but reminisce about the koreans back in australia. just like the international schools here, we asians just don't fit to well with the americans, the australians the european. they're nice, but when it comes to school and playtimes, we just can't get along that much.

most of my friends are asian, but more than half of them are koreans. there are sooo many koreans in australia haha. my first korean friend was called kwang nam. he's this fat boy with an extreme hairdo at such a young age. he's even dyed his hair haha. i remember him making a joke that when you meditate with that buddha pose, you right hand signals the sign god and your left hand signals 'give me some money'. haha. kwang nam also thought me how to say anyong hashimnika (correct me if i'm wrong) which i think means good morning. for some reason, me and kwang nam use hang out in the same area so he is the person i meet the most outside of school. i also know his mother which was this really nice korean lady and when i meet her i would say anyong hashimnika.

my second korean friend is probably one of my best friends back in australia. it was this girl named jenny. her korean name was eunjang. jenny was really really nice and we played a lot. she lives in this beautiful house near school. There was 2 things i could remember about her, her birthday which was celebrated at her house after school. her mum cooked really really yummy korean food. i mean, they were REALLY good. i remember one of my bule friends didn't really like the korean food and made some comments about them and jenny was like "you shouldn't say that :(" and i was like "how could you not like these they're so delicious. on my last day of school, jenny came to my class (we weren't in the same class) and gave me a farewell present. i think that was the sweetest. it was a pack of bunny shaped korean made erasers where you can mix and match the bunny's clothes.

well, actually they were so many koreans and when we were playing a game such as dodge ball they would be in one team and speak korean and we'd have NO idea what they're saying and they'll end up winning. haha

sometimes i wonder if they still remember me. i tried looking up in facebook but i don't think facebook is that 'in' in korea. sometimes i wish that one of them ended up as k-pop stars and i'll recognize them immediately haha.

i once remember looking through Dolly mag, the aussie magazine, and they were giving out hunk posters like they always do and there was my friend who really was hot since he was 10. to bad i didn't keep the magazine. it would be nice if that occurred to the koreans as well. lol

trying to cram 3 months in a blog post

so in a few days, college is going to start again. before i come face to face with the oh so annoying assignments and homeworks and whatever, i'd like to recap this wonderful 3 months i've spent.

i remember the first day of the holiday and i was bored as hell. i was like, it's only the first day, what am i going to do with the rest of the holiday? well thank god i get to tutor my students everyday so i always had something to do. and my friends are also having their holiday so we spent a lot of time together too.

then came to time to flee to japan!!!

oh god, i am sooo out of words if i have to explain japan. maybe i'll end up writing about japan for this entire post haha. japan is a country beyond words. i don't know how a country that small could hold so much awesomeness. everything is sooo unique and so japanese-like. it's like they have a way of doing things which is different from the world. their public toilets could have up to 17 buttons for washing your as* to making tinkling sounds and making the seat warm. they also the the nicest supermarkets and beautiful2 everything. god, i am lost for words.

my favorite place was harajuku. it's soooo unique and there's this store where they sell collectibles of toy story, south park and the simpsons and i didn't want to go out and i chucked things to my basket without thinking.

my second favorite place was ginza, the new york times square of tokyo. it was sooo huge and lights and lights and buildings. there's this 5 story apple store which was totally crowded and had a glass elevator. all the clothes store in japan are also really big. forever 21, h&m, uniqlo and a lot of other known brands have their own building that could go up to 5 stories. yeah, like the apple store.

then there's the food. oh the food. while i was there, i ate japanese food all the time. we did ate chinese, but only once. even though i ate japanese food everyday, i didn't get bored at all. there was always something new, something nice, something unique.

they also love their culture so much, there's this really long street where they sell stuff such as kimonos, fans, chopsticks and all japanese stuff and they are all so tempting. their temple of more than 1000 years old are also still preserved really well. they even use ultraviolet sterilizers to clean the glasses we use to take water from the spring.

then comes the anime. oh god, anime. once you're in, you're in deep. i went to this store in osaka where they sell nothing but naruto and one piece stuff and i went crazy i didn't want to leave. i just didn't. i can't decide what to buy, what not to buy. they were just soooo tempting.

one more thing about japan, the theme parks are soooo wicked. the technology they use for theme parks is way beyond america. so you can only imagine how sick that is.

then it was back to jakarta.

after seeing japan and all, i thought i'd give one piece another try.i use to read it, but i stopped cause of college and stuff. well this second go of reading, it went more than well. i fell in love with luffy and the straw hat crew quicker than you can say "pirate king". they are all so amazing, all of them. but my favorite just happens to be robin. she is cool beyond repair. i could stay home for a whole day and not go anywhere cause i wanted to continue with the story. i cried at some part and laughed hysterically at others. that, until one manga got erased.

then came super junior

well actually, i've been watching super junior since the start of the holiday. but with japan and one piece, it kinda got paused. so i continued watching all i want before college starts again. i can't find the words good enough to explain how much those 13 guys have made me overly happy this holiday. how i cracked up laughing my ass off till really late everyday just watching their variety shows. how i watched their videos like it was some sort of...... i don't even know what to compare them with. it was really entertaining, really funny, really educating. also like one piece, there were also some sad parts which made me cry :(

so well, there was my boring post. i guess my holiday mainly consists of those 3 wonderful gifts god gave me and oh were they entertaining. if you've been wondering where my boyfriend fits in the picture, well he's pretty much there almost everyday to share with me my one piece craziness and all sorts of other craziness. haha

YouTube - Super Junior Intimate Note ep25 part 4 (ENG SUBS)

YouTube - Super Junior Intimate Note ep25 part 4 (ENG SUBS)

don't have to watch the whole episode. just watch this part. it cracked me up soooo much. i don't think i've laughed like that in aaaagggeess.

it's the part where they play charades. i use to play charades when i was younger and i totally sucked haha.

btw, videonya ga bisa di embed jd lgsg ke tkp aja ya

kibum!

sumpah gw udah smp taraf SUKA BGT sama kibum. sukanya tu udah yang suka bgt bangetan smp gw ga tau mau gmn lg. sukanya tu smp gw nontonin semua video yg ada kibumnya di youtube. teriak2 klo dia di filmnya ada adegan cipokannya. gw sukanya tu yg sampe mau gila if i think about the fact that i could never see him and that there are tons of his fans that are like me and seeing them just makes me more desperate cause i'm just one of them as my chances of meeting him shrinks even more. sukanya tu udah smp klo dia kesini kaya kimbum kmrn gw PASTI bakal dtg meskipun itu ga penting dan itu mahal. gw jabanin deh gaji gw ga buat apa2 trus jual bb or apa gt biar gw bisa ketemu. masalahnya dia ga ada nanti di SS3. sukanya tu yg udah suka bgt smp cape tp udah desperate.

geezes i'm 20, kok ga beda gini si kaya wkt masih umur 14. it's like i'm not growing up. but who cares, masalahnya ini kibum. gw udah ga tau lg deh harus ngapain. gw bahkan smp nontonin rainbow romance--which is sampah bgt--cuma buat ngeliatin kibumnya doaaang.

last time i posted pictures now i'll post videos so you people can actually see how hot he is when he's in motion.

sumpah geraaaam bgt gw ntn video pertama

kim kibum

mungkin orang2 taunya gw di suju sukanya kyuhyun, donghae, eunhyuk, siwon. terserah deh mau dibilang labil apa gmn, tp yg ini bnr2 bnr2 bnr2 ampun ga nahan lucunya sumpah habis kata2. haha. trus kayanya sayang aja klo ga ada satu post di blog gw yg dedicated buat kibum.

sumpah gw gemessss garrrrhhhhggg hharrrgghh. haha ok ok control2.

anyway, kibum speaks pretty good english cause he used to live in LA. as for me, english in a guy is MANDATORY. doesn't have to be superb, but a little bit will do fine. klo ga, mau ngomong pake bahasa apa gw sama kibum? haha

ps: va, ini yg lo blg lucu di sorry2

apologies

sorry if my last post was too harsh or anything. just saying what i'm feeling.

lebaran sebentar lagi!

oh god i love religious holidays such as lebaran and christmas!

so in this post, i'd like to share a little something that's actually very personal in my relationship with iman.

things are going great and all. we're 20 but we're having fun as if we're 14 and stupid. but there's this one thing i always try to avoid cause if we talk about it, we'll ALWAYS end up fighting. and i mean, ALWAYS.

iman, though he doesn't show it much, is pretty religious. religious as in he prays, he fasts he does things a muslim's supposed to do. on the other side, there's me. i believe that everything i do is prayer. the good things, the bad things. the oh so sinful things and everything, they're all prayers. at least to me they are. i mean i just can't accept the fact that god himself asks us to pray to him in a certain way and in certain times exactly the way he tells us to. that or eternal damnation. i mean, come on.

a lot of people say that god is the all seeing eye. he watches your every move and he knows everything about you. so if he's on the watch 24/7 so why do you pray only on those certain times in a language we don't even understand. that's just never going to make sense to me.

i believe that everything i do, is a learning process to find my purpose and to be a better person and that's how god wants it to be. at least that's what i believe.

ok, not this. i am not, i repeat, i am NOT saying that the religious system is wrong. no not at all.i'm only saying that it is just not for me.

maybe some people feels more comfortable if they have something to lean on constantly, some rules to follow, something to hold on to. well, that just doesn't work for me. i believe that god won't punish us just for eating pork and coming to contact with a dog which i think god created to be man's best friend in the first place. i just think that he's telling us to use our free will and to know ourselves what is right and what is wrong.

ok, so here's the catch. say that you are religionless. now write down a list of the things you know that is bad. for sure you'd know that killing is wrong and you would never do it. you'd also know that stealing is wrong, hurting other people is wrong. also for the good things, you'll know that helping others is nice, spreading love is nice, TOLERANCE is nice and everything else.

a human being is born with brains and they are capable of knowing what is right and what is wrong.

ok, now imagine yourself being in a religion. this religion tells you EVERYTHING you need to do and not to do. it tells you that your religion is the most perfect of all. it tells you that it's ok to hurt people if they are against you're religion cause it's called defending. it also tells you that it's wrong to drink alcohol and that it's ok to have 4 wives and all, it also tells you that no matter what you do wrong all you have to do is pray and then you're forgiven. let alone apologize and trying to change and realize you're mistakes. let alone toleration. they're against you? bakar!

what happens is, the person ends up relying too much on the religious system that his sense of mind gets really numb and he no longer knows what is right and what is wrong cause all is just so confusing. so the person ends up relying 100% on the religion and even applies the bad stuff in real life. making wars after wars after wars after wars.

when i was in my religion class last year, someone asks the teacher. "when you're in the rakaat terakhir and praying that last part of the prayer where you're fingers have to be pointed, are you supposed to move you're fingers around or let them stay still?"

it's like there is a rule for EVERYTHING you can't decide anything on your own anymore. you have to know the rule exactly the way it is so you don't do anything wrong and you can't even tell for yourselves what's right and what's wrong.

and then another absurd question "eh sbnrnya kepiting tu haram ga si?"

OH COME ON you're not going to burn in hell just for eating kepiting.

those people, they RELY ON THEIR RELIGION that they don't realize how stupid they sound.

seriously, can't you even tell for yourself that eating kepiting is not at all wrong unless you are a member of PETA and you are completely against animal being burned and eaten.

do you HAVE to pray on that 5 times a day or else you'll end up on the deepest pits of hell? oh come on, don't you think god knows you better than that?

as much as i love jakarta....

gw lg pgn bgt bgt bgt bgt keluar jakarta. banget. i can't even explain how much i want to leave this city so much and live in a whole new place. alone. saking desperate, kayanya ngekos di depok will do deh. bnran. problem is, i still have this teaching job of mine.

don't get me wrong, i love the city, every bit of it. down to the traffic jam and the noisiness and the buildings and everything. but i want to live aloneee. i really really really really want to live alone. i know some people who just graduated from highschool (2 years younger than i am) and already living alone di kosan. and i feel like i've been stuck in my for years and will still be stuck for the upcoming years.

ok so i'm graduating in 2 years(AMIN). i don't know wether i should continue with post-grad or get a decent paying job somewhere so i could rent my own apartment and live alone and stuff.

it's times like these dimana gw mikir, gimana ya klo dulu gw jadi ke australi. that'd be great. i mean really great.

to make a long story short, i only have 2 choices, ngekos di depok. or ikut beasiswa ke cina. i can't ngekos cause i can't leave my students, i just can't. and beasiswa ke cina, i can't hide the fact that i still have a boyfriend. ya masa gw tinggal setaun. i know nothing is supposed to stop me since i'm young, tp ninggal tau2 diri jg lah. lagian ya gw kaya baru bisa ikut gt2an taun dpn gt.

sumpah bnr2 pgn bgt keluar jakarta

i just love this verse

we're not teenagers, but we're not quite adults. at times we're being chastised by our parents for not calling; at others, we're starting internships at companies we might want to work for someday, in our real adult lives. My advice: instead of worrying about who you were or what you'll become, try to just enjoy the moment.

-gossip girl

travel

it all started when i was watching breakfast at tiffany's (nice movie btw) and audrey hepburn started singing moon river. when she got to the part where the song goes "2 drifters, off to see the world" i suddenly realized, how nice it would be if i could really travel the world. but then i thought, why would i want to see the world if i haven't even been around my own country much. i don't know, but it just doesn't make sense. it's like you've been all around town but you've never even visited your backyard. it's sounds all wrong.

actually, ever since i was little, i've always wanted to travel across indonesia. not just travel, but really go into the rainforest and dive in the ocean and stuff like that. i remember how i use to love watching jejak petualang and how i wanted to be just like that when i grow up, but hey, how many of us clung on to our childhood dreams. it eventually gets forgotten.

so now i'm twenty, and wanting to live the dream more than anything, really. so maybe i want to so 'muluk', i'll probably just visit other cities and enjoy what i can enjoy there. i mean, i AM indonesian and i've only been to jakarta, bandung, bali, lombok, jogja, solo. ok so maybe that's better than none but really, out of the 18000 islands in indonesia i've only been to 3. seriously.

i want to know what semarang, surabaya, padang, medan, ambon, manado, looks like. later on it would be nice if i could visit sumba and other wonderful places.

last january i went to bali with my dad and i met my dad's business partner who was hawaiian. he said that there's this american couple who made a cottage in the island of sumba and the money they get actually goes to sumba. so far, they have made a few hospitals and a bunch of schools.

i was so awestruck upon hearing that, i mean, it's not even their country and they're being sooo nice to us and here we are not caring shit about the sake of our country and just standing there doing pretty much nothing and claim that they are nationalist. probably the biggest favor we've ever done is wear t-shirts resembling our love for our country but pretty much 0 action.

if you happen to be a true nationalist who reads this posts, please don't get offended, i know a lot of people are doing a great job in making things work and i salute you but you gotta admit that there are more people who well, just don't do much or even nothing aka me. trust me i'm not proud of this AT ALL.

i've made a pact ever since junior high to later work in indonesia under any circumstances and continue living here no matter how delicious other countries seem. indonesia has giving me SO MUCH MORE than a place to live and i'm not going to just abandon it. the least i can do is give something back, in any way. even if i ever work outside indonesia, it's for the sake of my country.