insomnia taiiiiiii

here i am again, not being able to sleep. but despite my blog title, i don't think it's insomnia this time. i'm stupidly worrying about this one stupid thing which is really stupid and the words 'what if' kept popping in my head. what if what if what if what if?????????

the things is, i'm going to do something i consider pretty bizzare tomorrow(wednesday), and i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA how things are going to turn out. aaaaaaarrrrrggghhhh.

like i wrote earlier, i'm now reading the princess diaries. in the book, mia said that she's trying to do what eleanor roosevelt said, 'do one thing a day that scares you'

i think that quote is absolutely brilliant. i've heard a lot of amazing quotes but i've heard one quite like that. i can't even imagine what a person could accomplish if they really follow that quote. they'll go to the edge of the cliff only to later find out a new potential inside of them. NICE. 

yesterday i did something scary, doing a presentation with only 5 minutes of preparation. i also have something ultra scary in stock for tomorrow but none for today. hmmm maybe i'll try driving. haha OH YEAH, my driver won't let me. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. even though i have my mum's permission.

ok, back to the princess diaries. who hear reads the princess diaries. i mean, read it read it. follow it from book 1 to 9? i'm sure only a few people do. but somehow, i really like mia. sure sometimes i think she is the stupidest person alive but then at times, i feel like i'm soo connected to her in some way. and i'm sure millions of other teenagers feel the same way about her. meg cabot really is the greatest. mia's been with me since i was in 7th grade and i feel her growing up in her books. right now, she's just been dumped by michael after a 2 year relationship. it's pretty fun to read all the crap that happens to her actually. makes you feel lucky somehow that your not in her position. she also has this website about her; www.ihatemiathermopolis.com. that link is a real visualization of how the blog is in her book.

anyway's i went home by train today with asri, boneng and vava. we talked about the languages we've learnt so far. they kept making me talk in french, deutsch and chinese and i felt my head was completely spinning when i try to seperate those 3 languages. haha. i keep getting mixed up like, wo te nanpengyou liebt in bandung . hahahah. and many more that i couldn't really recall.

oh and btw, yes i realize he's no longer wo te nanpengyou. haha but i'm still not used to it.

i finally managed to open www.edsui.org. the website for UI's english debating society. i CAN'T wait till i really join. but at the same time i CAN'T WAIT till i get that super cool imsi badge. ok, back to the debating society. i just found out that UI's english debating society(edsui) is ranked no. 33 in the WORLD. that's like WOW. i'm so GLAD i can actually be a member of it. i also found out from the website that the last competition they joined was held in UNPAR. which happens to be boncel's college. hahaha.